Got myself a D.I.V.O.R.C.E. ...

[gnrGrievous]

and it was ...

it was ...

it was just ...

the single best thing that has happened to me in months , if not years ! ...

The folks i see in the flesh can't seem to understand my joy , so i thought might as well bring forth the news to you , as well as to explain my sudden absence in the past couple of days (i know you all gone hearty-broken missing for me , don't hide your tears) ...
Afterall , asside from the fact that we've never met in the flesh , you brothers and sisters are the easily the most remotely interesting and intellingent bunch of individuals i've got myself the presure of knowing in years (whether that is a good or bad news is yours to decide) ...

Anywya , long story short ...
My deary little literary wife who , years ago , in her immense stupidity and belief decides to seek refuge from this 'world' by becoming a corporate cog (thereby abandoning her status of a worthy 'literary' individual , you see) was an object of disappointment in my eyes ... and so i dig into the memories of my life in the past months and years , seeking refuge for my own well being with the image i had of my dear little wifey (that of a creative being , as she once were and was supposed to be) (not to mention a quite elegant human being that you like to sleep with , quite honestly) ... well , can't say that things always looked 'positive' when a man lives by relying on fictional characters based on real life creatures ...

Anywya ... given the nature of our jobs , we could rarely see each other ...
In fact , we hadn't seen each other for more than a full year i think , and i personally decided not to reply to any of her messages , if there was any ...
(asside perhaps from a 'cake' i got for my birthday , then again i doubt she would have sended me a cake if i hadn't sent her one myself on her birthday) ...
So while it sounded 'good' that i didn't had to see her ... well , she was still my wife ... and back then i didn't exactly realized that the 'fact' that she was still part of my life was a danger for my well being ... me being a prisoner of a past , chained into a realm of dreams and comfort , yet always so ... unsatisfying ...

Finally , a few days ago , she barged me into my life , suddenly , and quite seriously too , i mean , to the point she contacts me as if i was another instrument of her corporation (her letters , quite frankly , could have been typed by a forum moderator , you know the kind , always being 'polite' even though you know they actually want to explode) with words such as 'cordially' , 'cooperation' , 'satisfactory' , 'my demands' ... ho , hohoho , her demands , by the way ...

Remember how Andrew Ryan burned down his forest when the government tried to nationalise it ? ... well my situation was bit similar to that of Ryan , so i did something quite similar to that of Ryan in the past days , and i think she isn't too happy at the moment , but really , hahhahahahahahhaha ...

Anywya , details aren't necessary , you can just imagine what you want ...

In fact as i'm typing all this summary , it sounds ... utterly artificial , i myself can't believe that it was all real , and for all i know i might still be dreaming , but i doubt it ... i hope so anywya ...

So ... yes ! she thought that , by barging in like this into my life again , and throw me in the face with a bunch of threats (the type that asks me to never once even 'talk' about her ever again ... no , really) ... she thought by doing that it will make a great victory for her over me , i suppose it was a part of her literary persona that still lives somewhere within her , but i guess she failed once again ...
What she didn't realized is that it was precisely what i need it , an opportunity to have her to off from my mind ... as i said to her , "you may now cease to exist" ...

And it was quite true , this is more than a mere goodbye or seperation ...
This is , me , cleaning her out of my mind ! ...
I mean do you even know what this feels like ? to completely remove someone out of your existence , your morales , your consience ...
My choices and decisions in the life that i still have can now be based on a total 'free mind' ... without any hinderance from her character into my thoughts , without having to base my probabilities on the knowledge of my past with her , Nothing ! ... nothing at all from her character will matter in my life ahead ...

This is more than an occasion where i could 'wipe' her out of my memory , no , this is more than that ...
This was my chance to jump off the cliff ... yes , me ... and embrace ... embrace such ... purity ... the huge weight lifted , gone , obliterated from my back , Atlas i am no more ...

The funny thing is that while she broke the chains for me by accident ...
I made no deals whatsoever with her ...
And you know how people don't go to happy when they see that you take something without giving in return ...
So perhaps she will indeed find some excuse to bring me under the arms of the law ... but it is all in her doing now ...

As for me ...
There is one 'bad' news , per se ...

quite simply i don't feel ... 'unhappy' , anymore ...
I'm not exactly full of happiness either , but , i don't unhappiness anymore ...

And ... look around us , where are we ? ...
We're in a Kane & Lynch forum , we're in the forum of a game about misery ...

I don't know if i can be at ease anymore when talking of this game ...
Of course , it's too soon to make out pre jugements ... but it is a fear to watch , i'm afraid ...

Maybe it isn't worth it afterall , i'm not sure ...
On one hand , i see that i appreciate drama , but mostly due to the fact that i was full of it myself as well ...
Now ... now i ... i don't know ... is it worth it ? ...

I'm pretty sure i can find something to become miserable again by chaining myself to another unchangeable force ... rest to see if you all prefer that i stay and remain a free mind or jump back into the dark backward and absym of time ...
Yes , the choosing is yours ... i guess i owe you lot that much ...


I have to say i'm sorry i can't ... possibly describe the 'greatness' that has swallowed my life in today ... neither can i fully transcribe the grandness of this event , or even fully explain just 'how' did she managed to break my chains ...
It's really the unexpected miracle , the deus ex machina (however i should precise that unlike the ones i had in the past , this is one of my choosing) ...

Through her sudden appearance filled with hatred (of which remains a strange mystery) she gave me a couple of choices , which all boils down that i will meet her demands one way or another ...
But as a slave obeys and a man chooses , i chose the impossible itself , i remove the chains that she has already made loose by her simple presence alone ...


And the chains ... shall set me free ...

[JackGordon]

A funneh guy once said:
"I believe love to be hurtful to society, and to the individual happiness of men. I believe, in short, that love does more harm than good."

He's right.

[gnrGrievous]

That guy sounds like a frenchman, which would actually make sense ...

Still, not only he seems to be right, but my numerous past misadventures can even Prove that he is right ...

This is quite troublesome indeed, because i had plans to find the whereabouts of a certain (or rather 'the') special someone ...
I had been looking for the right time to search for her, and now that i have it, now that i am free, psychologically even ... i can't deny that the past shows that love did 'more harm than good' to me, so it would seem that i'm still continuously shooting myself in the head ...

Oh, but then again i wasn't as free as i am now, especially in the psychological sense ...
Plans are still in motion, then ...

I do hope this one isn't dead yet, otherwise i would find myself standing on top of her grave, and it will be quite an embarrassingly pathetic scene, if not a hilariously grieving one ...
Then again that'll fit my name jolly well ...

[JackGordon]

It seems that I'm more of an individualist than you are.

[gnrGrievous]

I think i was an existentialist first and foremost , screaming monkey second , and occasionally autarchist ...
And after that you'll have to ask at my other personalities to know their allegiance ...

But really , there's now a new issue hovering around my head ...
Am i still 'Grievous' ? ...
I mean a few days ago i could still relate myself to that name for it was what i am ... but today ... what should i be known as today ? ...
Happy Grievous ? ... Chain Breaker ? ... Just another random asian looking person ? ...

Oh lord now i'm already on the verge of having an identity crisis ...

And this is happening before Kent even shows up to instruct us on how it's all lies , and how dead men will always be deceived , and how we should all snap the out of it , and such other similar taco related madness ...

[JackGordon]

Bieber... Stfu and have some cake.

[gnrGrievous]

Man this is embarrassing , i was expecting this place to look like a raving hill of joy and the like ... instead , it's deserted bar , not so different than those i meet in the flesh , with only Dog Man here being the eternal man's best friend , and making a difference ...
But the worst of all this is that it's like if you folks only gets attracted to sad pitiful stories that involves stuff dying for no reason , common ! let the joy reaches your soul and celebrate the wonder of such moment ! ... does my well being not satisfy your soul ? ...

(then again perhaps folks just want to see me squashed on the pavement) ...
Anywya , we need music to celebrate ...

Let's have some raghupati ! ...

[Kent-45]

lookin' down the barrel of a hot metal .45 ... just another way to survive Grievous. California rest in peace, simultaneous release. California show your teeth.

[BeardedHoplite]

Huh, firstly, why the hell did your change your posting color to blue
Secondly, whats your address so I can sends you a Divorce present.

[gnrGrievous]

Oh i see what you did there , still trying to locate my position aren't yah ?! ...

Well you shan't have it ! ...

Anywya i like blue , i always did , plus it goes well with the photo , so , for once in this forum we shall have some color other than the dead pink ...

PS: i'm still flabbergasted at the lack of aura of happiness round here , perhaps a ... different kind of music will do ... then again maybe not , but it's bound to give a good image of the unleashing of thy chains in my soul ...